That is all i have to say.

Starting to-day I will be going on hiatus from deviantART and all other websites. My navy career starts in a few weeks and I won't have time for browsing the web. I will be off to basics in Chicago toward the end of October and to a-school in San Diego starting January.

Life is really strange. One minute you feel so sure that what you have will last forever and the next tick of the clock it is taken and sent far from you. I don't know where we get the strength to do what we need to do even if it feels like you're dying a bit inside.

I know I'll sound cowardly for doing this and you are probably right, I let someone very dear to me go this night. I knew I lacked the ability to do it in person or over the phone so I did it with an agonized note.

You see, I love her more than life its-self so this was and will be very hard, but I can't keep her waiting for something I can't give her. I'm gonna miss her laughs, her smile, the way she talks to me, how special and blessed she makes me feel. I'm gonna miss her mis-matching socks and that Shep of hers, that dog is 100% joy.

I've never known someone whom challenges me like she can and I doubt I'll meet anyone like her again. She was my kinder and better half and she inspired me to be a better man.

Christina, the last two years with you have been the best two years of my life. We knew so little about each other when we started this relationship but, somehow we two strangers fell head over heels for each other.

I don't know where my life will go from here. I'll just keep taking it a day at a time remembering that God has a plan for me.

Leteth the randomness spew forth....


Can I get one more? Why's there no more ceiling on this chair? Does the clock on my wall stop ticking when I leave the room or does it just want me to ask this question? Why do teeth have to be white, why can't they be black? I mean, it's a more expedient colour and they'd match my socks. Seriously though, what's the deal with playing cards being so hard to shuffle when you buy them brand-spankin'-new? Can I get one more, please? Thankyou. Was that katsup I just saw you putting in this? If so, I'd like another squirt. Ya-hoo! Could these drapes be more odd-coloured than they are? Hey you, over there. What are you looking at? No, seriously do you wanna go back to my place? I'll punch you square-in-the-temple for making such a remark as that! O-kay, that's what I thought you'd say. [Twit!] Bartender, where's my soda? Alrightythen, now we're getting somewhere. Have you ever been to Vegas? Oh, you have? Nice! Did you stay on the strip? Oh, I see. Just passed through Vegas. What time of day was that? Hmm...Yeah, I bet it was hot then. Yeah. Alrigh--Oh, you gotta go home? Alright, well it was nice meetin' ya'. Yeah, you too, thanks. Later. What was that? Oh man! Talk about your weirdness of sorts. The Olympics are going pretty well for us. Yeah, Dalhausser and Rogers won gold! That was quite the show. Well, here's one to lampshades. Badda-bing! Ugh...instrumental breaks are nice. I didn't know that judges could do cartwheels. Oh, wait, he didn't do it. Nevermind. What is that thing on my face? No it's not, it's not my nose. Thankyou so--thankyous'--thank you so uch for pointing that out to me. Egads I'm tired, that means I'll be up three more hours. Just watch. Was that John Lennon? No-no-no the whacked dude on a unicycle on t.v. John-freaking-Lennon! Yeah, yeah that's the one. I hope they do a re--oh there he goes again! Whoah-ho-ho! I did not know he could do that at his age. Hu-huh, cool! Change the channels. Blasted Weather Channel. Always on commercial or some god-awful go-green show/atrocity. Oh well, all's I got's to say is we get what we deserve for our stupidity. I'm really liking this song: Hero With a Dream-Antestor. Lovely intro and singing, actually singing--of all things--in this song! That's a rarety, let me assure you. I see gnats! Yugh!! I hate bugs, I hate skunks, I hate spiders! What a strange design on my wall. Looks like wood, but I'm not sure if it is wood. Let me check...uh, I can't tell. All hard and mostly hollow objects make pretty much the same sounds when knocked with a knuckle. My speakers just made a clicking sound. What's that? Has it been three hours yet? I can't tell and I don't really care. Space-bars are funny looking. They look like Kit-Kat bars, not that I haven't seen one recently. What's the story of the moon-shaped symbol on the F3 key? Is there some sort of third celestial body that comes in betwixt the sun and moon that THEY don't want us to know about? That seems kinda off to me. Oh, speaking of "off" I've been off drugs my whole life! Which is worse: knowing or not knowing which is worse? Anyway, what can you do about it? I'll tell you. Sleep in! Ha! The answer to all life has to throw up at you: sleeping in and Dimmu Borgir, Metal Heart, baby! It's got a touch of Fur-Elise in it, that's kvlt! I just re-introduces JuDaS, my iPod, to Black Metall and I'ma lovin'g the results of the "Shuffle Songs" feature. I play that wee-little thing all day and I do mean ALL day. Oh wait, I gotta go make sure it's plugged into the wall-adapter...Okay, all plugged in no more got's to--was that a bug buzzing?--Have I ever mentioned that I hate bugs? Well here it goes again, I hate bugs. And with a passion. I've got some 900 songs on my 4(3.69)Gigabyter. Disgorge is a brutal band! I can't understand a word Levi Fuselier is saying, but he's good at gurgling. Now we're on to Amon Amarth. Yeah, I like the whole "With Oden on Our Side" album, excellent guitar and drumwork. Johan Hegg's singing is pretty good, too. Ugh, I'm already half-asleep, jeez! Enough brimble-bramble for one night, let's see what is in forums now. Later!

I've finally come into my own. I am now, officially a wise-ass. This is a bad thing that's happened.